The last three weeks for me were life changing. I welcomed someone into my space and learnt so many things about myself. I became clearer of what I wanted because of the experiences we had together. I experienced joy, anger, bliss, happiness and connection. It was a soul connection that I remembered from before. I felt safe and comfortable. Our hearts connected as one in times of true grace. I was treated like goddess and sometimes I was forgotten.
Then last night came like a rollercoaster from the universe. I wasn’t confronting something that I knew was inevitable. It’s funny how when you try to hide from something, it confronts you in the most humble way. Let’s just say I had an insecure moment and I was respecting myself so I stopped what was happening between us. Then the happiness I lived for the past few weeks was no longer present and fear took over. Rejection filled the space between us.
I kept affirming to myself, I am safe, I am loved, I am whole and complete. I kept hearing from my team, “It’s going to be ok, everything is working out as it should.” My grandmother (in spirit form) laid beside me in those moments and gave me comfort.
Last night was a hard night, but there were all glimmers of magic and hope intertwined in the conversation the two of us had on the way home.
I thanked this person and I didn’t get emotional. I spoke from my heart and I was true to myself. It was hard but after a long restless sleep and an up and down day I have more clarity. I know I am worthy of things I never asked this person to do. I just expected them. I realized I am a fighter, a light worker that is willing to work through all the bumps and lessons life delivers when we need them. I realized I am stronger than my ego let me believe for a long time.
I know now that I am clearer on my wants and grateful for the experiences that get me closer to the magic waiting in the next moments that unfold.
Relationships are what we make out of them. I choose to see the blessings and release the hurt over time.
So I want to ask you:
What helps you choose what’s healthy in your relationships? How do you stay in your power?
I wish you all the best in your internal and external relationships.
I say choose happiness every time and more magic will continue to spark the path you need to walk.
(As the great wise Shamans say: Ho)