I have to be honest. The last few weeks have been challenging my character. I had a break last week and went to the mountains and surprisingly I woke up in cold “fear” sweats. I am in an uncertain part of my life. Waiting for something to happen so I can find inner peace. Everything may be shifting for me. I may move or I may stay. It depends on an internship that decides my fate. I am familiar with this fear of uncertainty. In the past, I faced the same fear that presents itself today. Even then, everything did work out but it was still scary at the time.
I think uncertain times like these present themselves for us to be sure of what we want and to really hand over our wants to the universe. I know the universe has my back. I know my angels have my back. So how can I put this fear aside and be peaceful on this rocky road I’m on. Where is my solid ground?
I’ve been thinking about it a lot, meditating every night trying to fall asleep to loving myself and waking up in nightmares that consume me. I keep affirming to myself that everything is going to be ok. I need to get in the mindset of being exactly where I want to be. I need to feel the peace now to invite the peace in when it comes.
It’s a funny that ego creates so much fear it can sometimes be hard to hear our hearts. So I guess the answer is to keep affirming and keep being grateful for the many blessings that always surround me. In the end, my heart will be beating the manifestation of my life.
And so it is.
I believe we can do anything, sometimes our egos are our biggest lesson makers. I guess that’s why I chose to be here, right?
Sending you lovely heart blessings!