Layers of Triggers

I have encountered a lot of fear this week. I have to confess that I got triggered by car problems. I have been in my fair share of car accidents and my body seizes up if I sense any kind of danger. I have healed this many times and I think this week brought up another layer.

I asked my team about what I can do and they said I have some deep emotional healing to do. I am happy that I am aware of this and I am ready to move through it. 

Is there something that triggers you even though you've worked on healing it? What can you do the next time it comes up?

Triggers are Healing Friends

The other day I was triggered big time. I used to have a lovely dog named Mojo. I was watching the Dog Show at the Calgary Stampede the other day and I realized how much I missed him. Mojo brought a lot of joy into my life and he was always happy and willing to give love. Sometimes I would leave social gatherings early because I wanted to spend more time with him. When I came home, he always was so excited to see me. I live alone these days and I’ve been wanting to get a dog for a long time but it just hasn’t worked out yet. I want to come home to someone and/or a pet and it got me down this week. I was watching a video today that said to claim the person who taught me what loneliness was. I wasn’t to blame them but to send them back blessings and clear the energy. By doing this, I was taking responsibility for being self aware and clearing blame. I know it’s common to get lonely sometimes even though it is undesirable. When this happens, it’s an opportunity to heal in a deeper way and to allow ourselves to separate from the story and make space for healing.

Are you afraid to react to something that triggers you? Are you scared to feel what comes up in fear that you’ll keep attracting it? Is there a way you can look at it through the lens of healing? Can you detach from the blame and allow yourself the space to send it to the light?

Fill you up!

As I look at my body and at my life. I always wish I could do more and do better. I heard today that the root of all things come from the relationships we have with ourselves. Self love is important so we can fill ourselves up and then give to the world.

I don’t know about you, but sometimes I feel guilty because I love to sleep. I always have. I could sleep for days!

I noticed when I had a nap yesterday that I woke up with more energy. I also felt really connected to my team. I pulled a card today and they said to rest again. I think I need to respect that resting is a form of self love. I already feel better because I slept in today.

What can you allow yourself to do to fill up your cup?

Do What you Love - Even if it's Messy!

Hey, I’m back again.

It’s almost been a year since my last post!

I’ve noticed a few people in my life that have inspired me to come back to writing.

Sometimes I forget to write even though I know I love it!

Is there something you miss doing? I encourage you to do it!

It feels good to type and let myself fly.

I recently came back from Victoria. I fell in love with the place. It’s funny how you can visit a place at different times in your life and somehow you see it differently every time.

The trees were magnificent. The sunlight that grazed them was healing. I saw a troll sitting on a tree stump amongst them. I was happy to find a tree that had a heart shaped hole and fairies that danced around the grass that was around it’s roots.

I think I’ve been scared to write again because I don’t feel like a sophisticated writer. I see people who writing so elegantly and the words just flow out. That hasn’t always been the case me.

I guess I like writing because it’s messy and it may make sense to me but not everyone.

I like the meaning that everyone has behind the words. The meaning might not even be literal but it’s there in many ways depending on the reader.

I vow to write more. And I encourage you to do what you love, even if it gets a bit messy😊.

I'm Back!

For the last two months I’ve been hiding and being like a hermit. I needed time to accept the experiences that happened for my own healing.

In April, I moved into a new place and noticed I was getting sick a lot. Everyday I would wake up with a dry throat. In a few days, I noticed little water bugs that took over the bathroom floor at night. I felt dirty and embarrassed. I got chills whenever I saw them and ended up spraying to get rid of them. I’ve always had a strong dislike for bugs in my space. I felt powerless and I felt shame for the space I created. I also discovered mold in this new place which was likely the cause of my being sick.

Within two weeks I found a new place. Everything seemed to line up perfectly and within a short time frame I started to move in. The universe was definitely helping me when I was moving my stuff in. I happened to bump into a pest control guy that was spraying for cockroaches in the suite next to my new apartment that morning. I even saw cockroaches fleeting to my new apartment so I took my stuff and left. That night, my physical body shook of bugs crawling all over it and I felt royally kicked in the butt.

I was upset to find out that I couldn’t break my lease and the rental company gave me an option to move to two different floors. I knew I didn’t feel safe so I picked the apartment that was the highest one away from what I’d chosen before.

I was a mess for a couple of days. Luckily, I had friends that said I could stay with them for as long as I needed. I was ungrounded, highly emotional and literally just trying to keep my life together.

I wanted to have a home and place to call my own. I wanted to feel safe. I wanted a place where I could live and be happy. Through many tears and late phone calls to my mom and friends, after a few weeks I learned to accept what happened.

I started to move stuff in slowly and clear the space with my divine team. In a way, I think this experience crossed my path to show me that I am blessed to have so many wonderful souls in my life. Souls that opened their hearts and homes to me without question and took care of me as I started to feel the ground again.

Through it all, a friend of mine helped me laugh at the universal kick in the butt and encouraged me to keep going.

Over the past two weeks, I blessed the space and realized that it’s growing on me because I know for now it’s where I’m needed. I found out the cockroaches weren’t for but rather a path I was to cross in this lifetime. I believe I am bringing light to the building and in fact, because I made a formal complaint to the apartment rental company – they are cleaning the whole building!

Today, a month after couch surfing and house-sitting, I moving in with all my stuff! I am excited to exist in this space and let myself adjust to this new experience. Plus, I am thinking of getting a furry friend to play and be my companion while I go through the unknown.

I’ve missed writing over the past while and I hope I can be present with it and you more than I have ever been. To all those that have been through this with me and for those in situations that completely knock you out – I am looking forward to see how strong your light is! Shine on my beautiful friends😊.

Magic Is Everywhere

Yesterday, a friend and I went to Banff to relax and recoup from all the energy shifts that have been shifting us all lately. We sat by the beautiful river and witnessed the magic of the elementals. A little fairy guy showed up as I was taking pictures and his orb was hopping around, enjoying the sunlight and the company. Behind our bench, I felt a happy, wise, grandpa-like gnome. He was very friendly and circled the bench. He blew kisses at me and tickled my legs. It was very cool. A unicorn also came in as we giggled to ourselves about the surroundings that buzzed around us. We also felt a huge dragon clearing the river and splashing us.

It was a special time, a special day. I believe anyone can experience this, just ask and you to shall receive. Sending you elemental blessings always!:)

Change Is For Us

I’ve learnt a few things the last couple weeks:

Pain subsides once we let it.

The universe always knows where we are going, sometimes we just need to hang on for a bit.

Seeing others in the flow in life is inspiring and encourages us that everyone has their own flow.

We are always surrounded by love and the divine is always giving us messages when we need them.

There will be times of uncertainty.

Energy shifts are always a positive thing, showing us the light to where we need to be.

Being angry is okay as the divine will melt any negative emotions with unconditional love.

The physical body manifests what we need to heal at a soul level.

There are always miracles that are present, we just need to choose to see them.

Healing can occur as it’s supposed to.

Things happen for us.

Change is love unfolding in our lives.

To You My Love

My light, my love.

I miss you.

You were so special to me.

You opened my heart.

You helped me set boundaries.

You helped me heal when I was not.

I will love you forever.

I will love you for always my baby you’ll be.

I miss the way you saunter around the house.

I miss your sassy walk and your gentle paws.

I miss the way you sleep on my stomach.

And your honey smell beneath the sheets.

I miss the warmth of your body, the sunbathing of your youth.

I miss seeing you playing with the fairies at night and running around like you do.

I miss the feel of your coat, the fuzziness of your nose.

When I sit on the couch, I miss your sweet cuddles and purr on my legs.

You were a bright light to me, my Dixie dear.

You were a guardian to me.

You believed in me and gave me unconditional love.

You always raised me up.

You never judged, you just loved me.

I’ll miss the kindness and strength in your presence.

The softness of your heart.

I’ll miss the song of your life and the melody in that art.

I love forever and for always.

You will always be a happy memory, a perfect note.

Thank you for choosing to be my companion and let me know you so.

Sending all my love to you and your light.

Love you Dixie Daisy Doodle.

Good night my angel until we meet again.

Trusting In The Divine

Lots of changes are happening in my life.

I go between asking for help and sometimes testing the water before I trust the advice from my team.

The funny thing is the universe is always right.

It knows exactly what we want and need and it tries to bring it to us in the most perfect way.

For example, I’ve been thinking about this guy lately and wanted to message him.

As soon as I asked my team, they said wait and then I noticed today that he changed his Facebook status to “in a relationship”. I think my team knew that was going to happen.

Also, lately I’ve been searching for an apartment. I’ve been talking to people at work about it and they suggested that I start looking sooner rather than later. My team had a different opinion, they said to wait two weeks.

So I kind of half listened to them and went a viewed one “just to see how it felt”. Well, it was not a match for me and now I’ve decided I will wait out the time.

I was talking to a friend the other day and she said that my team is probably trying to cut down the time and line me up with something that is perfect for me. I needed to hear that.

I love how the universe works, I just need to listen and trust more.

Sending patient, trusting vibes to whoever needs them.

Namaste:).

Your Soul Light

Long ago, before you came into this world, you were a light that wanted to light up this life.

You had some things planned and some things unplanned.

You believed in the magic of love, the healing power of truth.

That’s when you reincarnated into the experience of your physical birth.

As you changed, that light was always there, shining here and there.

You always shined, sometimes lighter, sometimes brighter.

For to unleash your light is the most beautiful thing in the world.

So shine bright you kind soul and light up the next steps in your life.

You know the way, you always do.

True Power

The power to love or fear can appear in all sorts of places. I was searching for it this past weekend when I called an old friend for coffee. I was nervous and excited to see him. The last time we saw each other I saw the power struggle surface. I loved this man and I was looking for someone to satisfy the loneliness I felt for the past few months. As the chat went on, something changed. Miraculously I noticed I only reached out for him in fear of being alone. Then the conversation shifted and it felt stale. We decided to part ways and I felt free. The true power appeared when I let go of the fear. The true power was present, it was love.

The Sound of Love Within

The sound of love beats in your heart.

So come back to it whenever your hurt starts.

You can always tap into your vibration of love.

So reach in and receive it with open arms.

For sounds are more powerful than thoughts.

Open your ears and body to the sounds that bring you the most joy.

This where it is - the balance you seek.

So drum on my friend, with the beat of your heart.

The Universe Has Your Back

I've been sick the last few days. I was surprised that I got sick because I thought I was taking pretty good care of myself. I even booked a day off to hang out with some friends. Turns out, the universe had other plans.

So I chilled, watched Netflix, took medicine and asked the angels to help me heal.

Being sick can be powerful.

It can push you to exactly where you need to go. Now, a few days later, I feel refreshed and ready for life again. I feel motivated to start anew.

It's funny how the universe always has our back and when we allow it, it helps us get to where we want to be.

Through the shifts and strides

Through the coughs and cough drops

There is clearing being done.

And now the light is shining brighter, wiser.

May you flow with your life.

And heal easily and know the universe has your back.

May Cause Rituals

Lately I’ve been watching a lot of YouTube videos, mainly from Tony Robbins and Gabrielle Bernstein.

They’ve uplifted me, shifted my perception and showed me a common practice many successful people have used:

Rituals, turning the things we want to do for ourselves everyday into things that we must do for ourselves everyday.

Whether it’s doing a 10 minute meditation every morning or exercising for 30 minutes everyday, rituals help us move toward our dreams. They help us connect with the divine over and over again. And whether it is a new year or not, one can always adapt new principles and changes in their everyday efforts.

So what is it that you want to ritualize?

What is one thing you could do everyday to feel more connected to your higher self and the divine?

I would love to hear some of your rituals. Please feel free to share below:). For when we support each other we all shine our inner lights:).

Sacred Meditation Time

As I sit with my team

I feel the love

Energy expands from my palms

I feel clear

I feel light

I know this is where I belong

I enjoy this time to listen, to ask, to receive

I want to keep remembering what this feels like

I want to remember to ask more, receive more

They whisper "believe in yourself"

"Believe in love again"

So I open my arms and embrace their love

It is a freeing love, an unlimited one

It sinks into my heart and makes me know peace, contentment, freedom

I feel sacred, holy once again

And I feel free

This moment is a new beginning, a new breath

I read somewhere that each breath in and out is a gift

As life is a precious path that leads us to our soul's gold

For when we look within, we know who we are and where we came from

I think we are all stars that light up the world

Shine bright my fellow star and let your soul guide you home

Embers of the Night

As I fall asleep

I wish to dream of the love

That is always here

That I can always remember

Like fire sparks that light up the night sky

Love surrounds the glow in our eyes

And when I let my eyes rest

I open up my heart

And allow for the healing to continue

As I explore the embers of the night

I Am

I want to step into the flow and the light of my life

I want stop making obstacles of my own doing

I want to hold my heart and tell it "it's going to be okay"

I want to enjoy this day

I want to dive into the water and see where I float

I want to bask in the sunlight and wrap myself in its glow

I wish for patience

I wish for sound

I wish to allow my soul to be free, to leave it’s worries behind

I wish to let go of the barriers I put up around myself

For I am unlimited

I am light

I am love

I am ready

I am 

Energize Your Dance Steps

One step forward, two steps back.

I need to appreciate every step and when I step too far ahead I can get lost in the music.

The dance of life can sometimes knock us off our feet.

It may take some time to get back up and we have to be okay with that.

For when someone stands up more confidently, there is more ease in their footing, in their next steps.

But if someone stands up uncertain, it’s best to watch before moving their feet again.

Sometimes standing still and familiarizing oneself is a gentler way.

Either way, the dance will continue and one can join in whenever they get their steps back in place. Simply putting one foot in front of the other can be enough and then catching up to the beat will happen along the way.

I personally feel both ways work.

It’s the energy behind each step that determines the next one.

Compassion Mirrors

Compassion is a lesson I learnt this week.

I was constantly shown the compassion I needed when I felt the world cave in a little.

A lot of the time I forget that when I don’t have compassion for others, that means I need to have it even more for myself.

This can be tricky but we are always wiser and stronger than we believe.

My angels always show me the mirror I need to see.

Compassion allows your heart to open. Anger forces it to close. Love always reminds you to receive. That’s the way the universe knows.

And so from now on I remember compassion in all my actions, for when I am compassionate, I honor love’s journey.

The Power of Dreams

Have you ever had a really vivid dream?

That when you wake up you feel like you can remember most of the details?

Last night I went through a powerful sequence of dreams.

They are fell together and helped me uncover a bunch of things that I was holding onto in my being.

It was mostly work stuff and when I woke up half way through I tried to imagine a happier vision. Then family stuff came up for me.

The underlying message I received from my soul last night was that I need to stand in my power. I need to understand that I am powerful. That I can manifest and I can co-create beautiful experiences with the universe.

One thing my divine team always tends to tell me is, “Believe in yourself!” I know they believe in me and they celebrate with me.

So I asked them how I could be more powerful and they said “you have to allow yourself to stand in your powerful. You jump in and out of it on a regular basis. It’s important to stop making this a habit and rather feel empowered all the time.”

This is the affirmation they gave me: “I am authentically powerfully me now.”

Have you felt unpowerful lately?

Is this an opportunity to step into your power all the time?

Feel free to write about you think is an authentically powerful habit in the comments.

Sending you lots of authentic power:).